A Letter to My Ex — I Hate You

Banuel Dogayman
2 min readOct 9, 2021

My dear ex,

I hate you, it’s really hard for me to say such a sentence but I truly hate you. I gave you everything and you gave me nothing in return. You were my everything and I was your nothing.

Every time I tried my best and every time it wasn’t enough for you. You always blamed me, you always looked for my flaws, you never loved me.

And I? I was blind, I loved you so hard, even more, than I love myself. But loving you made me sick. I forgot myself, I blamed myself, I believed you. I thought something was wrong with me.

You destroyed my self-esteem, my self-worth. I felt worthless near you and yet, I still loved you. But I don’t regret it, I don’t regret being myself. I will always give all I have for the people I love.

I loved you and I gave you all I had and I would do it again. Now my heart and soul are broken because of you. But I will be happy, I will be able to rebuild myself, I will do it. I deserve to continue with my life. I deserve to be loved and feel how real love should feel.

And you? You will always regret that. One day you will realize that you’ve lost the person that loved you with all his heart. You’ve lost unconditional love. You will never find someone like me and to be honest you don’t deserve it.

People like you, who don’t know to appreciate the good things in life will be always alone and will never be satisfied. Maybe you “won” in the battle, you “won” me.

But the truth is that I won myself, you lost me, you lost the love of your life. I will forget you, you don’t deserve to stay even in my thoughts.

the person who used to love you

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